If Only...

If only I could cross your ocean
without feeling the puncture of your teeth.
If only I could drown myself than
to let you pull me beneath.
If only my sadness had a voice
and could tell you how it felt.
If only I could love you enough
to make your icy heart melt.
If only I could just walk away
and let nothing hold me back.
If only you couldn’t make me
do anything you ask.
If only I hadn’t lost myself in anguish
and didn’t have to apologize.
If only you hadn’t lied to me
and make me my own false disguise.
If only there were no more
‘if only’s between us anymore.
If only we could have gone back
to the way we were before.

..................

my face becomes blank as my mind i hold on,

but i'm falling my fingers twitch,

you're slipping i feel you start to drift

you're getting away, and i'm only askin you to stay.

give up a life you may not love

for one you will not like

my fist clenches around your slender hand

your splinter eyes meet mine

you're getting away, and i'm only askin you to stay.

It isn't a big deal, but somehow all

the world hangs on us tonight

my fist clenches - the walls come down

splinters enter sinner's eyes.

you're getting away, and i'm only askin you to stay.

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