without feeling the puncture of your teeth.
If only I could drown myself than
to let you pull me beneath.
If only my sadness had a voice
and could tell you how it felt.
If only I could love you enough
to make your icy heart melt.
If only I could just walk away
and let nothing hold me back.
If only you couldn’t make me
do anything you ask.
If only I hadn’t lost myself in anguish
and didn’t have to apologize.
If only you hadn’t lied to me
and make me my own false disguise.
If only there were no more
‘if only’s between us anymore.
If only we could have gone back
to the way we were before.
